Please make sure you read our first post, found here, before reading Our Big News.
It’s 2:07am and I just have to tell you our news! I can't wait any longer! I feal like my heart will burst! (Hey, I've been holding this in for a month!)
It’s 2:07am and I just have to tell you our news! I can't wait any longer! I feal like my heart will burst! (Hey, I've been holding this in for a month!)
Where did we leave off? Yes, my family is going to change the world…for one. We have decided to pursue adoption. I cry tears of joy every time I say (or type) the word Adoption.
But my tears weren’t always of joy. About a month ago, they were tears of fear and confusion. God is not the author of confusion but of peace (1 Corinthians 14:33). So where is this coming from? I remember asking my husband, “What if, (he hates what if questions) what if, I just cannot get pregnant?” He smiled (yes, he smiled!) and said, “Then we adopt.” That’s it? So matter of fact? No hesitation? Is that what wives are for?
Well, I did what every good wife should do: I consulted Google. I read page after page dealing with all kinds of adoptions. I took all the different info in as if that was exactly what we were going to pursue. A bit overwhelming. Of course it was. I went to the wrong place first. Don’t get me wrong, I love Google. We’ve become good friends. Feeling overwhelmed, I finally turned to God. This was when I finally fell on my knees and prayed that there would be pure motivation behind this. I prayed for wisdom and strength. I would need both if this was the path we were supposed to go down. I knew in my heart that it was. This was the next right step (even though it seemed more like a leap into darkness).
Now what? All the information was swimming in my head. So many choices. After much praying, and reading, and library trips, and late nights online, Jared and I knew WHY we would pursue adoption. God clearly showed me and changed my heart. I finally felt the peace the surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7).
“Delight yourself also in the LORD, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4 NKJV
*Since I posted this so early, I will be posting my “Why?” later today. Be looking for that and thanks for reading J
Yay! We are very excited for you and will be praying with you!
ReplyDeletePraying with you as your start this incredible journey!! Love you!
ReplyDeleteI am so excited for you, Jared, Sawyer and all the rest of the family (including myself). In some ways I'm more excited for a little boy that is probably already out there. He has no idea how how blessed he is and how his life is going to change. He will have a Godly family and friends who will love him. I am praying for all of you!
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